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Lucas,
I am going to try and be very nice here and this is hard for me to do. I hope you take these comments knowing that I do still hold hope for you. This comes from an all time class A fuck up. I know you far better than you think I do.
I have learned through my years of screwing up that it is one thing to be a screw up and be clueless but it is quite another to be a screw up and know it while not actively doing everything you can to change. You seem like a nice guy who is very eager to please. I feel like that gets in your way, the eager to please part. I was really impressed at your comments to LW in a previous blog; however, I think she is justified in saying the things she says to you.
All of this comes from you saying "I'll try not to do it again" and then going back on your word. Try is an interesting word. I can try to swing a bat and hit a ball but I will not always make a connection. You say (and this is just one example) I'll try not to spam the forums. The difference is when I swing the bat it is over in a second. I don't have the opportunity to delete that swing nor can I pause time and see exactly where the ball is going to come across the plate. You have the option of not hitting the submit button in those seconds just after you read what you are going to put up. You could even call for a do over by deleting the article if you feel you made a mistake. (these two things could be used in every case of you doing something wrong) Instead you say oh well I did it again and I will try harder the next time.
Trying and doing are two different things. The reason we all get so frustrated with you is that you say you will try but we never see consistent results. Several years ago I took a good look at my life. I was an arrogant asshole I would holler and scream at my wife at the drop of a hat. I had almost no patience at all when it came to her. Those things I was doing at home spilled over in to my daily life and all of the people around me suffered. You see I could no longer keep my anger confined to the four walls of my home. I spent a lot of my time angry at myself for my actions which lead to some pretty severe depression. I took a step back from myself and realized I wasn't at all happy with the person I had become.
I take time regularly to do some self examination. I know the person I want to be but if I don't constantly keep myself in check I find myself slipping back into those old habits. Lucas, you can make a positive change. You can convince the folks of JU that you are worthy of whatever it is you seek from them. You just need to look inside and figure out whom it is you wish to be. Best of luck.
Lucas,
I am going to try and be very nice here and this is hard for me to do. I hope you take these comments knowing that I do still hold hope for you. This comes from an all time class A fuck up. I know you far better than you think I do.
I have learned through my years of screwing up that it is one thing to be a screw up and be clueless but it is quite another to be a screw up and know it while not actively doing everything you can to change. You seem like a nice guy who is very eager to please. I feel like that gets in your way, the eager to please part. I was really impressed at your comments to LW in a previous blog; however, I think she is justified in saying the things she says to you.
All of this comes from you saying "I'll try not to do it again" and then going back on your word. Try is an interesting word. I can try to swing a bat and hit a ball but I will not always make a connection. You say (and this is just one example) I'll try not to spam the forums. The difference is when I swing the bat it is over in a second. I don't have the opportunity to delete that swing nor can I pause time and see exactly where the ball is going to come across the plate. You have the option of not hitting the submit button in those seconds just after you read what you are going to put up. You could even call for a do over by deleting the article if you feel you made a mistake. (these two things could be used in every case of you doing something wrong) Instead you say oh well I did it again and I will try harder the next time.
Trying and doing are two different things. The reason we all get so frustrated with you is that you say you will try but we never see consistent results. Several years ago I took a good look at my life. I was an arrogant asshole I would holler and scream at my wife at the drop of a hat. I had almost no patience at all when it came to her. Those things I was doing at home spilled over in to my daily life and all of the people around me suffered. You see I could no longer keep my anger confined to the four walls of my home. I spent a lot of my time angry at myself for my actions which lead to some pretty severe depression. I took a step back from myself and realized I wasn't at all happy with the person I had become.
I take time regularly to do some self examination. I know the person I want to be but if I don't constantly keep myself in check I find myself slipping back into those old habits. Lucas, you can make a positive change. You can convince the folks of JU that you are worthy of whatever it is you seek from them. You just need to look inside and figure out whom it is you wish to be. Best of luck.
