My Life Suxs!!!!!!!!!!!

from JoeUser Forums
I have not blogged in a while now and it is so hard for me to do alot these days. I am so busy with work and school and my own family to have time for anything else. I wish sometimes that there were clones of me that could get everything done a day so I wouldnt have to.

My mom and brother and I got kicked out of our house right after Christmas. So my mom and Gary got married and we moved in with him. Everything was going great except for occassional arguments every now and then. Well about 3 weeks ago he told us to leave because he couldnt deal with all the stress anymore. My mom has not had a job since March and Gary has began to fall behind in his bills. He took on a second job to try and support all of us.Well we moved all of our stuff out and I began to fall behind in school.

Well if all that isnt bad enough, my best friend of six years thinks that I am deserting her for a guy that I ahve been dating for almost two months now. That wasnt the case. I stayed with him because I was close to my mom and was able to get everywheres that I needed to be at. I went to school, worked, and then finally went to Robby's and got homework done. After about two weeks of this my mom and Gary got back together and she moved back in with him. Well I can back home and then all of a sudden now they are talking about seperating again.

My brother is a pain in the rear end. and that is putting it very nicely towards him. His dad has gotten me into trouble at school and then my brother comes home and starts arguing with me and saying mean things about me and calling me fat. He makes fun of my boyfriend and my mom sits there until I start arguing back, and then says something to me but hte whole time my brother gets away with everything.

Then last week my sister was picked up and taken into a group home. I was forced to go see her last Sun. and found out she is dating a 20 yr old guy and she might be pregnant by this guy. He seems really nice but I dont know if Amanda is serious enough to stay out of trouble and stay with him.

Well today I was supposed to get paid and I didnt because my checking account was closed. Then I tried putting the money into my mom's account and it was frozen. So I have no money from over 200 paycheck and cant do anything this weekend because I ahve to work all weekend. My mom yelled at me and hung up on me tonite when I called her to find out about my checking account.

My best friend thinks that I hate her but I dont, no one seems to realize that me not having a cell phone I cant be reached. I am hardly ever at home and If I am then I am doing homework or someone is online and I cant use the phone. I love Elaina to death and miss her so much but she thinks that I am ditching her for my boyfriend and I dont even get to see him that much only if we are working together or happen to get off on the same days.

So now that it is almost 100 at nite I am finally going to bed so that I can get up bright and early to gto to school so that I dont fail anymore of my three classes. I am failing english right now because my mom doesnt know how to get me to school on time in the mornings. I have no car and cant depend on my mother that is the whole thing that suxs the most in my lfie right now. My mom is not there for me but I have to be there for her whenever she needs me.
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Reply #1 from JoeUser Forums Top

It gets better, I promise.

Trinitie

Reply #2 from JoeUser Forums Top
You seem to have a good head on your shoulders and your priorities straight. Trinitie is right. With these things going for you, no matter how bad the other stuff gets, it will eventually get better for you.
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Reply #3 from JoeUser Forums Top
I don't know how close you are to 18 but I'd count the days! Save some money if you can, and get a room mate or two when you are of age and get out of that mess!! If you are in hs then make sure you get a place close to school. You can look in the paper for room mates, and get a decent place if you have a couple of them.

Sounds like you are gonna have to stand on your own. If your mom can't get you to school on time....ask for a ride, ride a bike, get up two hours early and walk, do what you need to do to pass so you can get OUT of that situation...there is only one way out sister...that's education so you can get a job that pays the rent.

Don't sweat the best friend. Cut her loose if she is dragging you down. Stay focused on school, work and getting rid of that situation.
Reply #4 from JoeUser Forums Top
Ditto on what closetograd said! You have to do whatever you can to get to school because this is important. I'm sorry your mom (or anyone else) is not there for you right now. I know it might sound easy us telling you that it will get better, but trust me, it will. Just don't give up no matter how hard it seems right now, there will be a light at the end of that tunnel. If you ever need to talk just email me, seriously.

Good luck with everything and I'll pray that it all works out for you.
Reply #5 from JoeUser Forums Top

Don't sweat the best friend. Cut her loose if she is dragging you down.

Nah, don't do that.  No matter what, true friends are always more important than even education....lol

Trinitie

Reply #6 from JoeUser Forums Top
Thanx guys and no i just cant cut my best friend away because she has always been there for me and my situations.

I know eventually it will get better but for now things are not going great and i have to realize I have hit a couple rough spots in life and pretty soon I will come out on top of things.

Thankfully I do have a best friend that is there for me and knows my situation and understands. And most importantly i am thankful to have my boyfriend Robby because we are such great friends but at the same time I have never had a guy treat me so great.
Reply #7 from JoeUser Forums Top
Jessica I am so glad that you are so happy with Robbie, and remember that i will always love you girl. Aloha