OH NO! It's happening to me now

The downward spiral

As I was sitting here reading blogs, laughing at some of the funny ones, agreeing with some, trying to find agreement with others, and generally having a good time on vacation. My phone RANG!

It was my wife, it wasn't good news, or was it?

It seems that the large major national insurance company she works for, in their downsizing has decided to close her office here. My first thought was "not good Cap."

My next thought was to recent posts I'd read concerning somewhat simular circumstances other persons are going through.

Let me say that this is a minor setback. But a setback none the less that would invite catastrophy on some individuals, no sarcasim intented.
I look at this as an opportunity for something better. Sure I have to deal with her comming home depressed after loseing a job she's had for 14yrs now. Take inventory, in case some liqudation of assets (toys) has to come about. I haven't rode my Harley in 3 months anyway. You know the drill.
But I can't help but be optimistic about this one. She's been complaining about her workload now since other downsizes have taken place, and putting up with a little depression is nothing compared to listening to that let me tell you.

It's gonna be tough though, but my Dad, football coach, and Martial Arts instructor all told me, "what don't kill you makes you stronger."
Some how lying there bleeding though, that little bit of wisdom didn't always sink in, but I always remembered it.

Other famous bits of wisdom are comming to mind now:

"they can't eat you"

"s*** happens"

My Mom's favoite, "things always happen for the best" : )

The list goes on. I gotta deal with this now, but thats fine, solving problems and making decissions in the heat of battle is what I am paid and trained to do.

Two other quotes come to mind after this bit of news, both I have said though to my men:

"You think you got it tough" and, "MAN! THATS GOTTA HURT!"

Humor intented

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Reply #1 Top
Hey man...

You seem to have the right attitude about it...

Downsizing is often the kick in the pants some people need to find their true calling!!! I am sure you and the missus will be fine!

Good Luck!
Reply #2 Top
Hopefully none of those stupid cunts are reading this.

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You are so correct. My favorite quote you pulled was "what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger". It's true, and kind of messed up. Take for example those stupid whores I insult on here, they're weak. So they let it effect them. No matter how much fucked up shit a person goes through in their life, it will only make them more capable to deal with anything in their path. Sometimes God likes to play games and goes a little over board, and makes them into a walking shell that's inpenetrable.

Ok.. back to the reason I was posting.

Dec 17. I'm leaving work. Just pulled out of the parking garage. Guy I work with calls me. (This is gonna be a long reply btw. )

"You checked your mail yet?"
"no. why?"
"check it as soon as you get home"
"wtf you talking about"
"fucking AME just sent me a letter, saying Dec 31 is my last day?"
"are you fucking serious"
"ya man.. says since we lost the contract, we're unemployed"
"that's fucked up"
"call me when you check your mail"

.... i call my brother back at the house..

"hey, you check the mail today?"
"no why?"
"will you please go check it for me, and tell me if I got something from ame"
(he lets me go and calls back)
"ya, you got something from AME"
"Open it up and read it to me"
(i hear him opening the letter)
"woooooh"
"ok.. that's what I thought it was, I'll see you when I get home"
"you ok?"
"ya.. i'll see ya in a bit"

I sat that night. On my PC. Sat and thought. I drank probably more then I"ve ever drank in one setting, and listened to music on my computer for HOURS. Never moved, never did anything. I just sat, listened, drank, and thought. I couldn't believe it. WTF was I going to do. All i could think was I was going to have to move back in with my parents, and move to North Carolina. Where I don't know a single sole. WTF. How could they do this to me.

(side stuff here, I worked for a IT solutions provider, which had a contract with a large county hospital. If you didn't pick it up yet, we lost the contract)

Ok.. back to the story. I sat and sat and sat. Talked to my parents for a while. They gave me the big speach, everything's gonna be ok. You'll find something else.. yada yada yada..

2 weeks later.. Dec 31. My last day of having a job. I remember I walked out of the hospital.. I must have stopped 10 different times to just look at it. This hospital is one of the largest hospital's in the country. It's massive. I Just kept stopping and looking back, in disbelief that I wouldn't come here everyday. I only worked there for 2 years, but it was the first "job" i'd ever had.

When I got in the parking garage which is across the street, I must have stopped for a few minutes, and just stared at it. Completely in shock. The fact tomorrow.. i get up and I sit at home. I'll never see this place again. I'll never talk to those hundreds of people i've built relationships with. This is it.

I didn't cry.. until I got into my car and started driving home.

Fast forward.. now it's ~ Jan 17. Still unemployed. Already went to the unemployment office and found out they're gonna pay me $212 a week. That's barely enough to pay for my car & rent. Let alone utilities, groceries, gas, *beer* (heh!).

Friend that used to work with AME, before I ever started with them, but met him through my buddies that worked at AME. Worked for another consulting place, got me an interview. Place looked great. Less then a 1/4 mile from my house. However they wanted me to work *bleh* help desk, and to top it off 3rd shift. Help desk is awful, I only did it for about a month, and hated every day of it.

I went to that interview. 2 days later.. i get a call from some resume I submitted on monster.com in probably October. Forgot all about it. They wanted to interview me.. I went. 2 days later they called me back for another interview (first one on thurs, second one was for the following Tues). I went to that one to meet with the Director of IS as he wasn't there for the first interview. That afternoon they called me and offered me a job. I started on Jan 22. 22 days of unemployment.

I now have a job I absolutely love in every where. It's completely stress free, I make about $14k more a year then my previous employer. Everyone there is completely laid back. They gave me a laptop for work/home. I have a Dual G5 system sitting on my desk as well at work. At the hospital, each person ran an average of 120 trouble tickets per month. At my new job, there's 80 tickets a month between 3 people. That's not even 30 tickets a month per person, at the hospital my last month alone I ran 148 tickets. So.. you can imagine how much more stress free this is. It's laid back. Everyone is super cool.. it's what i've always wanted in a job.

I know that was a long winded story that you might not think relates at all. But what I'm saying is. No matter how hard the rain, with stand the pain (ok, that's my quote from the rapper DMX, i like it though so fuck off bitch) The sun will shine again, and when it does it will be brighter then ever. Your wife will find something else, and she WILL be far more happy. I hated the job with AME, i came home everyday bitching about my boss, the job, the this the that the other thing. I absolutely hated it, but I stuck around there. Why!? Because that was my job, that's where I worked. I'd worked there for a long time. I never realized how much better life could be.

btw.. I've never mentioned this before.. which is probably no surprise. I just turned 21 in August of 2k3. If you think this story could help your wife out at all, please have her read it. (Just as long as you dont' let her read my other blogs.. hEH!)

Sure i sit around and call stupid cunts stupid cunts.. that's my thang. But I know how your wife must feel. I remember how bad it sucks, and I remember how bad I wanted to really feel like things would be OK. But as someone who's been right where she is, less then a month ago. Things really DO work out. Almost fairy tale like.

vaya con dios


Reply #3 Top
Thank you deleted, that post I know came from the heart of someone that has been there. I am going to pass this on to my wife(I hope you don't mind if I clean it up just a little), but I'm sure it'll go a long way to making her feel better.

I know at the time this happened to you it wasn't a funny thing, but I got to tell you man, the way you portrayed it to me I couldn't help but read it and laugh. Thanks again for the comment .

Blog on Bro, Blog on.
Reply #4 Top
Capt775-I know you will be OK, it sounds as if you are well prepared. But just in case, remember, there's a safety net out there to help!
you knew I wouldn't be able to resist, didn't you?
Reply #5 Top
Callous, heartless things happen to callous bastards like you. Sell the Harley, oh my hearts achin for all of your pain and misery.
Reply #6 Top
Sometimes you do get a better job. Often you do not. Usually you have to wait for more than a month. Life gives you lemons and you make lemonade.
Reply #7 Top
E. Macy, your right, they do, damn you so smart. BUT! Its how us hearless bastards deal with them that makes us different. Notice I said different and not supierior.

Now I thought you said for "me" to let it go. I'm thinking that maybe I'm not so far off base with my comments, judging from the reactions that I recieve from some of "you".

But I can't let it go any longer, I have refrained from name calling, but you just won't quit. I'm gonna let you have it now---- you, you, "NAME CALLER"
Reply #8 Top
oh wtf.

no one's gonna call deleted a stupid jerk asshole dick face poop stick!?

Oh.. ya.. that's because he's agreeing with someone, who he's not trying to get a rise out of. Oh my god. It leaves you speechless and stunned.

But let's no make any mention of deleted_ being helpful, instead lets focus on the negative, besides, that's far more productive and healthy.
Reply #9 Top
I agree Kat, and I liked the way he wrote too.
Reply #10 Top
Sad shit ain't it deleted_? Here is what Mr. 775 is on about. His inability to let things go and Move On. Hasn't figured out that generalizations are made and he has been the victime of my generalization regarding views on Homeless in America.'
anyways_heres Captains method of dealing with rejection and being called A Name.

Reply By: Capt775 Posted: Friday, February 06, 2004
Since you asked me what I think:

In my "Callous, Heartless Bastard" opinion, I think its Bullshit.




Reply By: E. Macy Posted: Saturday, February 07, 2004
Get over it Capt.775_I offended you and am probably wrong in my saying something that isn't true about you. This is the internet:shallow, vague, no eye contact etc, etc...after reading
all these hateful comments I made a big generalization_it happens. You are old enough and secure enough in yourself to know what I say doesn't matter. So accept this apology and Move.on
Greetings van uit Zeeland
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Reply By: Capt775 Posted: Saturday, February 07, 2004
Ok, lets move on, but I still think this article is Bulls***.

Reply #11 Top
Hey Kat_he's one of these twats that really gets HURT by someones shallow comments on the INTERNET!!!!!! Like he gives a fuck what I think...
PS your comment received ZERO attention_and it was brilliant! See focus on the bad for popular rises...hahahahahahahhhhhhhhhhahaha
Reply #12 Top
E. Macy, you can't hurt my feelings, like you say I don't even know you.

I was just yanking your chain, because I thought that the names you used to describe someone that made the comments I made on the homeless blog, were a little extreme. That would indicate to me you were easily riled up. Your last two post here, prove me out.

There was no need for you to apologize.

Lets move on.

Like he gives a fuck what I think...


If you don't care a little about what these people think, why read any of the blogs at all?

The comment I made on your other post. I read the article, I really thought it was Bulls***. It wasn't meant as a personal attack on you.

Now I know what it takes to rile you, and should the need for me to do so in the future arrise. Your range is marked, I can fire for effect.
Reply #13 Top
Yeah just shoot me...it would be typically fucking American of you pardner.
adios