Fuck Friends

Can we still be friends?

That's really what I'm after because even though I see that we cannot go on like this, I cannot live without you.  

Can we still be best friends?  

Can I still hold you and can you still run your fingers through my hair when I'm upset?

Can I still trust you?  ....When our promises are being broken already?

I.  Am.  Losing You.   I want you.  I always have.  

I wish I had the tools in me to fix both of us.   Because you'll always be worth it to me.