Visions, voices and other things...

Ok, let me start by saying I forgot some of those other things I was going to be writing about here, but that's not unusual as my brain fails me too frequently in remembering little things throughout the day.  I may remember by the time I close here, but I'm not counting any chickens.

Let me start with the visions.

I wrote an article about some glitches in the road (and some dead horses that I hadn't kicked enough) that had come up over the last few weeks in my relationship with my fiance.  The odd thing, though not that odd for me, is that I could sense where the conversation was going to go before we'd even had it.  Not all of it, but enough to have that sense of deja vu that occurs every now and again for me.  It hasn't happened that often for me lately, and really not that often that I'd recall in my life, but it does happen every now and then.

One of the most impressive times it happened was when my first wife was killed.  I didn't know at the time what the message was, or what the vision was telling me, but I had a nightmare that I woke up from and just knew something was terribly wrong.  I quickly came to my waken state, surveyed the situation and calmed my nerves in realizing that nothing was wrong - then.  Later, after getting the tragic news, and having it all sink in over the succeeding days, I was struck with the deja vu feeling and realized what the vision/nightmare had been telling me.

There've been other times I don't recall as easily nor as vividly, but I know every now and then I get these visions and glimpses ahead and later when I get through it all I'm struck that they seem to work similarly to voices from my past, that, like a country song by Chris Young, are giving me guidance through my path in life, except that in these cases they're rehearsals of a sort that setting me up to be able to get through whatever is coming my way.

Those voices in my head, like the song, from my parents, and especially from my grandparents, who helped shape the man that I am today are welcome in my life.  They remind me of the things I should have learned along the way, how I should treat others (with love, respect, and kindness) and help keep me on the right path in my life.

The visions seem to do the same.  They help keep me more calm and able to get through things in my life, and at times they seem to be offering me goals to look forward to.

My latest vision, one that I'm happy to have running around in my head, is one of a lovely bride walking towards me, getting ready to walk towards the altar and make the lifelong commitment that we both wish to make to each other.  She's been playing the traditional game of keeping me (the groom) from seeing her dress or seeing her in the dress until the wedding.  I know a little about what to expect, but other than her verbal description, well, I'm being kept in the dark.  Or so she thinks, but... well, as you all now know, I've got that vision running through my head giving me that glimpse into what I expect to come.