Leon_Amarath

Join Date 03/2008

For those who remember me... I want to say sorry to you.

ok... it's a bit difficult for me, i'm actually shaking because i'm nervous, to do this so if i ramble on or confuse you i apologise in advance.

It's me, seeker. You may have guessed who i was already by my account and i don't blame you for been surprised or angry to see me on the metaverse again. First of all like the title said i'm actually here to correct some wrongs a made some time ago. I hurt many of you, baited you, flamed you and i believe i was trolling the site for a bit but i don't remember too much about that. Not to meantion i was a hopeless metagamer, god-moder and uncooperative role player at the time. as i said i don't blame you for been angry. None the less, regardless of your thoughts about me I need to say i'm sorry. There is not question about it I was at fault so I am incredibly sorry for what I put you all through.

Why have I come back?
I feel guilty about what i did here so naturally I want to apologise and see if I can repay you in anyway. Things need to be set right, even if i am not forgiven I need to try. Maybe we can look back at it and laugh, I mean I was a total nob and i'm sure as hell laughing about some of the things i did. On that note I think i also want to rebuild some of the old friendships I had (if you can call them that), or at even build new ones.

What have I been up to since i left?
First of all when I left the site I was very upset, i couldn't understand why people were turning on me. lawl, the classic selfish act. I sort of bummed around between sites and friends and i withdraw somewhat. I then fell in love and since then i've been more concious about the way I treat people and what i say and do. I've come to realise how i treat others is no different to how a spoiled brat treats his parent, when the spoiled brat doesn't get his way he chucks a hissy fit and blames others for his missfortune. I'm pleased to say i've been with this girl for near 1 year and 4 months, we've stuck it out through thick and thin. Since then i feel i have become a more stable person, i can understand when I am in the wrong and above all, understand others are just as important and me if not more. I've really been using music as a way of exploring myself and art as a way of expressing my feelings. i still do a lot of gaming which i really do need to cut back on but my crowning achievement is that i'm building a role play site (Considering my past some wouldn't think it to be a wise idea, I too worry about that factor, hopefully i will have the self control and cool to forfill the role of admin).

About my various names...
Yeah, when I was here I had lots of names and user pictures. i think there was a Red raven, everflyer, talisin or something? I can't remember them all. But that is no longer important, for the last 5 months i have been using 1 username across all the sites i'm a part of, Leon Amarath. I believe it is a good sign. same with my Email address and all that. My user picture however i sometimes change.

How do you know this isn't just one of my attention seeking moments?
Well truth is you don't, that's one of the bad things about the net you can never know what someone is thinking or how they act over a few lines of text.

So yeah, i'm super sorry to everyone, Freeman, Harborne, Neilo, KP, Death, Motto... everyone. If you find it within yourself to forgive me thank you, i deeply appreciate it. Merry chrismas btw, or rather merry chrismas for yesterday.

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DethAdder

Hey man. Been a long time. Glad to see you found some peace and stability. To tell you the truth I didn't remember who you were at first. The name seeker rung a bell, but wasn't till everflyer/talesin mention that it jogged my memory. We've all had our moments on here back then and probably should of just not taken ourselves or this forum so seriously. It's just a game after all and now that hardly any of us are left it seems kinda silly. I know Neilo and Motti don't frequent here much anymore, but I do talk to them regularly and will pass on the message. I believe KP is still around and keeping the Kzinti going though. I hadn't seen Freeman in a good while and, well no comment on Harborne (I think he was banned last I remember). I still occasionally play GC2 modded for fun, but mainly Sins: Entrenchment and S.T.A.L.K.E.R. have been my latest obsessions. What have you been playing lately? You also mentioned an RP site, but didn't say what it was. I'd check it out if you didn't mind as I'm always looking for places to peruse. Anyways, good to see one of the old crowd make it back around and wish you luck in your endeavors. Be seeing ya

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@Leon: Best of luck to ya.

@DA: lol, I had forgotten that I wasn't the only "nice" one around.

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Heya Silver. Didn't realize you still stopped by on occasion. I had migrated to the Demigod forum for awhile, but gawd the attitudes of a MP centered community. The GC2 peeps I still think are probably the best game community I have seen so I keep finding my way back.

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Thank you. lol, it's good to know i'm welcome back here. I'll ensure i behave myself.

Everyone takes what they love doing seriously. Can't really blame anyone for that.

Thanx for passing on the message to Neilo and Motti, they are really good people. I'm guessing KP will visit in his own due time then, it will be good to hear from him again. As for Freeman I'll look up his email address and send him the apology, His details are written down somewhere in my overly messy room. As for harbourne, well, i'm still in the process of tracking him down Found him. Maybe i can try contact his sister or freeman and get details, I owe him and charlie an apology. Noticed Seth hasn't been on either, i'll have to track him down as well. Come to think of it i gave kryo a bit of mouth back then too, sorry about been rude to you Kryo . (I hope he reads this)

My site has been in the works for about 6 months now, It's an original, organised role play site which sort of incoperates futuristic, medieval, mythological and magic all in 1 storyline (which i'm still working on). Infinity Role Play, i'll pm the link so not to break the advertising rules of this forum, when it's finished i'll email you to let you know it's ready.

lol yeah, i miss the old crowd. Maybe we can get it back together make some new memory's in the future (some better memorys rather than the ones of me bad mouthing you guys off).

@Leon: Best of luck to ya.

Thank you silver.

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Oh yeah, almost forgot. I play pretty much the same games as I once did, i don't play galciv2 anymore. I can't remember what I did with the install cd. I play StarCraft a lot, dispite how unfriendly their community is. I play flyff still, but on a private server. i have other games but i'm not really playing any of them. 1 i guess because my computer is about 3 years old now i'm restricted in what i can buy from eb games. my processor lets me down.

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KzintiPatriarch

Join Date 05/2007

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Hey Seeker. Good to hear from you, and that you seem to be doing well. I'm still playing a bit of GC2, but at the moment most of my game time is taken up by Civ4. I've been itching to play some Rome: Total War again soon too.

The biggest news with me is that I am buying a house!

Sounds like you have a lot of good things going on, and I am glad to hear it.

Sentient species taste better...

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that's excellent KP! really well done! ^^

actually it's all sort of come to a grinding hault. All the stuff i was doing for my girlfrriend and as of 5 minutes ago we broke up for reasons all her own. We ended on a good note but i'm somewhat down over it. I think I need to stop the projects i'm doing now and start some other projects. make a fresh start. maybe I can write a book or something , worth a shot i guess.

I found my old Galciv2 CD . i'm contemplating whether i should begin playing it though. decisions decisions.

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Freeman43

Join Date 11/2007

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Ohh the memories here. Damn site still dose not work for Firefox and my wrighting is still like shit. But man I been so many places after this. Hell this was the first belive it or not, Role Play site eventhough it was not intended to be one. But man, shit I remember the last bit when I was in this place it was about harbourn. Thats all i remember as a last bit of it. I mean I stayed a little bit but moved on. Still loved this game, but hell my luck brought me a scrached disk later on in my life. Got to buy a new one I guess. But anyways dude Leon no need to say sorry to me man. Hell I was some what young in all of this but man I was on your side, no need. But hell its been a long time to think of it. But hay man I am all ways willing to bring up old stories. You, Me, Seth, maybe others if they wished. But I am willing to help but man we do got a lot of cetching up.

(Sorry about the spelling)

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Your spelling is better than mine.

I'm not sure if I want to continue with my rp site anymore, it was all sort of for my ex. :/ don't you just hate it when you start something then you loose motivation for it? feel guilty for giving it up.

If anyone wants to add me on my MSN my Email is I_A_Star_Gazer@live.com, I think i'll start over and build the site from scratch, new plot and ideas.

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Neilo

Join Date 04/2006

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Hey Seeker.....Dude first thing first....i'm not sure you need to apologize for anything to anyone. No-one takes anything on a game board with too much salt, so i really doubt that you actually really offended anyone.

Annoyed maybe, but hardley worth you worrying over it.

Good to see you have sorted yourself out mate!

As for me, i did get into Demigod in a big way...made some mods for it, but the community there, even though it's Stardockia, really is very poor...the DOTA crowd really ruined it...and the exploiters. Iv'e been playing an old Need for Speed game on the PC and Forza 3 on the Xbox 360, but i have been busy fixing up the house we moved into.

I have been thinking about firing up GC2 again, but i won't be playing for points anymore, just for fun.

Good to some old names in here, (hiya SB and KP) if ya'll have skype and wanna chat PM me and ill drop ya my username.

Take care all!

(That Dethadder guy can be a real PITA!)

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Saint Mina

Join Date 07/2007

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I found my old Galciv2 CD . i'm contemplating whether i should begin playing it though. decisions decisions.

@ Leon, Neilo is right! The past is the past and forgive and forget.

I am looking for some brave hearts that would like to play just for jun. I have new empire but now its not so new now, it is like over a year old but we are in the top 10. So check us out and leave a comment.

No Mercy! No Respite!

Saint Mina of Ophelia VII of Order of the Bloody Rose of Orders Militant of Adepta Sororitas

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“We are at war with forces too terrible to comprehend. We cannot afford mercy for any of its victims too weak to take the correct course. Mercy destroys us; it weakens us and saps our resolve. Put aside all such thought. They are not worthy of Inquisitors in the service of Our Emperor GmOOnii. Praise his name for in our resolve we only reflect his purpose of will.”

Inquisitor Draco,

Castigations on the Last Days

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Over the internet or in RL it doesn't matter, an apology is an apology, hard times are hard times. i just felt the need to let you guys know that i regret acting like a noob and i would like to make amendments. , lawl 1 thing that hasn't changed about me is that i ramble on about the one subject unconciously.

I was contemplating whether i had the patiency to play it. sort of moving out of my gaming phase if you get what I mean. I've started a game, suicidal, small i think, 8 races, 8 minor, going for a conquest victory and so far so good, i play it for about 30minutes a day, lawl i guess i have changed considering i use to play it 10 hours a day if i could..

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Does Anyone have Seth's Email? i'd very much like to get in contact with him.

If someone could supply me with it i'd much appreciate it.

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MottiKhan

Join Date 04/2007

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Quoting Leon_Amarath,

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Does Anyone have Seth's Email? i'd very much like to get in contact with him.

If someone could supply me with it i'd much appreciate it.

I wouldn't give anyone's email out, but will contact him and direct him to this thread. That way, he can PM you or whatever.

Welcome back. I can't say that I remember any significant problems or otherwise between us, but if there was anything there, I'm sure it's all ancient history.

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It's been a while since I last seen a word from you and I need to say, that it's okay now cause there are other people people who's forum behaviors are much worse than you'res were in the past. And take no offense when I say that I did forget about you shortly after you left especially since my first year of high school this year, but then today, I got a message on Facebook from Motti Kahn, I immedietly saw the words Seeker and I instantly remembered you.

As for Stardockia, I've moved on. Galciv 2 is still fun to play but I have gone on to other games.

But thank you fo the apology and Id like to say I'm sorry because looking back on it, I reliazed that I was more harsh back then then I needed too but I was going through a lot of shit at the time and I was just so full of hate. Trust me even after you were gone I was still a very negative person, just ask Nelio or Dystopic, or any other member of the ToE.

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thanx everyone. It feels good to be back . So many memories.

I've sent you all my email because i'm planning on keep in contact with you through whatever means nessecary. It'd be good to get the old group together, we had some good times.

Just wondering, is anyone still upset at harborne? i've been talkin to him, trying to convince him to participate in bringing together the old MV crew and he's worried that everyone might still be upset at him.

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