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My Mother Died Last Night

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My Mother Died Last Night

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My mother passed away at midnight last night. I knew it was coming but didn't expect it to be so soon. I thought she would at least make it through Christmas and her birthday two days after.

I had prepared myself for this news, but it is still hard to take and I suppose I am still in something of a state of shock. I had prayed just a couple of days ago that if she had to go that G-d be merciful and make it quick so she wouldn't have to suffer. I am at least thankful for that, she simply slipped into a coma and never woke up again. I think that's preferable to suffering a painful, lingering illness and death.

She's at peace now.

I am in Florida with a load heading to Ohio. I am waiting for our dispatch office to open up so I can find out if there is another driver in the area or a reasonable distance away who needs a load and can take mine so I can get home. I am grieving for my mother and at the same time my head is swimming with all of the details that must be attended to. I can't even think straight about all of that right now.

I tried to get at least some sleep last night after getting the news, but it was spotty at best. I remember at one point, between the tossing and turning, having a brief dream that I had rushed home to find that she was in fact still alive. Some part of my mind trying to deny the reality I suppose.

The clock is moving painfully slow right now. I just want to get this load off of me so I can get home where I am needed.

I regret not having made it there to see her one last time before she passed. I truly thought we had a little more time.

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Reply #26 from JoeUser Forums Top

I am sorry to read this Mason and I hope somehow in the days ahead you find some measure of peace and solace. All I can think to say now and in this place is part of a poem written by Edwin Markam on the death of Abraham Lincoln.

...and when he fell in whirlwind, he went down
As when a lordly cedar, green with boughs,
Goes down with a great shout upon the hills,
And leaves a lonesome place against the sky.

Reply #27 from JoeUser Forums Top

Mason,

I'm so sorry for your loss.  My sincerest condolences, mate.

Ashes of the Singularity II
Reply #28 from Stardock Forums Top

Mason, I am sad to hear about your mother. I am so sorry for your loss but am glad to see you are on your way back. My heart goes out to you and your family. -_-  

Reply #29 from JoeUser Forums Top

 Mason, I am so sorry for your loss.  I hope she was very much at peace in the end.  I wish I had more comforting words for you.   

Reply #30 from JoeUser Forums Top

I'm so sorry for your loss Mason.  I hope you can find comfort in knowing that your mother should now be resting in peace.

Reply #31 from JoeUser Forums Top

Thanks to all recent replies. It's appreciated.

She passed peacefully. She just slipped into a coma and didn't wake. Exactly as I wanted. She didn't suffer.

Reply #32 from Stardock Forums Top

Mason, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. May it bring you comfort to know that she did not suffer. My condolences.

Reply #33 from JoeUser Forums Top

I am with you in this hour of great sadness. May her soul rest in everlasting peace and God gives the strength to bear this heavy loss.

Reply #34 from Stardock Forums Top

I am sorry for your loss.  I wish I had more to say.  Treasure the time you did have together.  Know that you were a good son and her greatest joy.  Peace to your spirit. 

Reply #35 from Stardock Forums Top

M, I'm sadden to read that she passed. I too was hoping she would have been around much longer, she was such a beautiful person.  My prayers and thoughts are with you and family.