Lonliness Is A Bitch
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Just thinking today....Why do men have to be such dogs?? They lie, cheat, try to impress all their boys and leave us at home. It gets very lonely sometimes, I'm not really talking about sexually, but mentally and emotionally lonely. I want to feel the affection others feel. There is nothing like being in my mans arms. But more often than not all I see of him is his back, leaving out the door to go out of town, or leaving to go kick it with his boys...I read in another blogging world that one man particular thinks of women as 'preditors' . He thinks that all we (as women preditors) do is use men to get what we want, but thinking about it....We learned everything from them (the men)...they are the ones that sit with their friends day in day out, kickin' it getting high, out in the streets, in and out of jail, probably dickin' down everything with a pussy. All the while his woman the one he comes home to at night is at home waiting and wondering what the hell is going on and where her man is...wishing he would invest half the time he spends in the streets with his friends trying to impress them instead of taking care of buisness at home. When he is in jail it sure to hell isnt his boys that he calls when he needs something.....It's us....oh yeah boy!! they love us when they are locked up, i have heard and seen so much bullshit while my man was locked up...Getting letters every three or four days (which was good) but then when I opened them it was like he was someone I had never met before.....I love you ......I wanna marry you.....Lets have kids....The whole time I am the dumb one eating it up....but in the back of my head (the smart part of me) was telling me that is the jailhouse talking.....and when he got out I honestly thought things would be different...But who am I kidding...I have trust issues that prevent me from moving forward with my life...I feel as though I am going to be stuck here being his dummy forever...I am the only one that can change it but I am sooo scared that he won't hurt near as bad as I do when i leave...I guess thats why I stay....