I expect a lot from people...

because I expect people to expect a lot from me.

Since when does friendship = any person in your life. I have always held the meaning of friendship to be much closer to its supposed actual meaning in which one friend helps another in need, or who share a deep connection, or who get through a difficult time together...not one that means people who get drunk together. Period. To me, friendship isn't limited to people I can complain about school with and then watch a game with on weekends. And that's why I expect a lot out of friends: loyalty, trust, reciprocation, a helping hand. Once upon a time, I used to wonder if I expected too much out of my friends. Until it finally hit me that if you can't expect this from friends, who can you expect this from? And then I analyzed myself. I may not be the best girlfriend or the best daughter, but I know that I am an amazing friend. Perhaps the reason I expect so much out of my friends is because I know I am a great friend to them. I wonder if our expectations of others mirrors how we reflect our own potential in a certain role.

...Which led me to wonder if I expected too much out of people in general. I feel that I am constantly surrounded by people who just seem, in a word, "fake." Most of the people I meet just seem superficial and shallow. I know that sounds somewhat cocky, but I have tried to give people a chance and the only time it seems to work is when I can join their world of getting inebriated, bellowing out sexual encounters, and oggling the newest Gucci dress, etc. Being superficial doesn't just have to do with appearance. I care for the way I look...face it, in this world we all have to to some extent or we get eaten alive. However, I don't have the same brain as the other 150 females in my school and thus, I wear what resonates with me, not the LV bag that is a "must have." Superficiality, however, lies below the skin. I am talking about the people who have for so long adapted to cracking jokes only about sex and alcohol because they know it gets a riot everytime. I feel bored of being surrounded by people who can find nothing of substance to talk about and don't even know who they are anymore because they've been so engrossed with trying to impress others and develop themselves purely into a carbon copy of their best friend. I expect people to be interesting, to be independent and to know how to connect in a way that doesn't involve beer and a penis. Am I expecting too much out of people? Does this ever change with age?
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I have a handful of people that are truly close to me...and I'd rather have them than a million so-called "friends."

What you expect from a friend is what I expect from a friend.  I need a deeper, richer relationship if they're going to truly be my friend.  Someone that's not afraid to open up to me and likewise I'm not afraid to open up to them.  It's a meaningful thing and while you can still enjoy those superficial things, bitching about school, cracking raunchy jokes, and all of that...you know there's a lot more behind that.

...hmm, this sounds like one of the poems I've written...I should dig it up and find it...or maybe write another.

~Zoo