What's Next?

April 28, 2004 8:55 PM from

This is my life right now:

I've been staying with my mom because Jeff and I needed space between us to figure out our relationship. It's been quite a while now and not too much has changed with us. I love him, but it's so very possible that it really is over this time. I'm not sure if we can recover from the damage he has done with his dishonesty. Actually, I think I can recover, but it's funny... I don't know if he can or if he's ready and willing to do what it takes to make this better.

My mom is being kicked out of her house, and she's decided to get married this summer. So, I am homeless.

My options are endless, but I can't seem to figure out what I WANT.

I'm still looking for work... better yet, praying for work...
I'm seriously considering going on a sailing trip for three months. It would rock if my soul sister Izzy went with me! I'm totally excited about this opportunity and scared at the same time... It may not work out until next year... I wish I wasn't so damn impatient!

The way I see it is, I'm as free as a bird. I have nothing holding me down. I'd like to figure out what the hell I'm doing with my life.
I'd love to pack up and move to Oregon or California... I think fear has kept me in Texas too long.

I'd like to play and make money for it. I want so desperately to travel! I would kill to go to college and not have to break my back paying for it. I wish I could find a way to make money doing what I love... Creating, playing, singing, dancing, writing, drawing, painting, sculpting, being, laughing, loving, sharing, helping, encouraging....

Am I overlooking something? Is there some awesome opportunity out there that I am not aware of?

I dunno... I guess I'm just rambling. My life is a mess. But I'm happy. And it's been a long time since I've actually meant that.

Thank you for reading my goofy writing. Please take a minute to say hi to me... Please send me your ideas.
Thank you Thank you Thank you

Blessed be,
Natalie

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Reply #1 April 28, 2004 9:03 PM from

JoeUser Forums Top

Hi.

Glad you're happy.

You're welcome for reading your blogs. I'm a little confused, was Jeff cheating on you? Did you post that blog, or is there someone else on JoeUser also dating a crappy Jeff? Lol sorry, I guess I haven't been paying attention to post sites well enough.

I kind of know how you feel, about wanting to get out of where you are. I want to get out of where I am, too. Of course, I'm in Minnesota which is TONS colder than Texas.

Good luck to you.

~Anne

Reply #2 April 28, 2004 9:48 PM from

JoeUser Forums Top

Hi

Long as your happy I guess all else will prevail

Reply #3 April 29, 2004 1:39 AM from

JoeUser Forums Top

Jeff didn't cheat on me Anne. If he did, I don't know about it. He has a sexual addiction and is a chronic liar.

I'd be interested to see the article you are referring to... How many crap Jeff's are there? lol
(No offense to perfectly nice men named Jeff...)

Thanks for responding Anne
Take care

Reply #4 April 29, 2004 1:46 AM from

JoeUser Forums Top

I'm glad you are feeling happy now, you deserve it. Just remember that the journey to discovering what you want to do with the rest of your life can be fun. Go sailing, there is a big world and an exciting life out there ..live it to the full and all the best of luck to you.

Jess

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