Fear of a Ban

all mostly my own dealing

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I can say without doubt that I have been sort of an annoyance on the IRC channel saying things maybe harrassing and this is not my own view but the view of everyone around me.

I myself work to keep things on track and try not to slide off the tracks on a hard turn, that's sort of a metaphor, well fate has brought me to this site to mainly talk to people my own father suggested I do that.

I try my hardest to keep things from falling apart I might have gone to far in the end, people don't really want to hear my story or what I do to try and resolve situations it maybe that they are generally disintrested in what I do or my thought process.

I am not here to harrass people or to annoy anyone to the point of being banned but I do seem to achieve what I am not trying to do more than what I want to happen. I myself am a loner kind of just there but really not I just sort of stand there in the background and observe people. I really am not much of a social person. I don't make friends easily although I seem to make enemies in a snap of the fingers. I am usually a quiet person who stays to himself and really tries not to interfere in the habits of others. I will seem to be an isolationist if you met me in real life always kind of afraid of what others might think of me. Although I do sometimes get out of being an Isolated person I tend to take friends and at some point push them away as I am not used to having any long term friends. I don't have much practice in making friends I usually don't even try, just am a figment of your imagination untill at some point I exist cause I finnaly get out of my socially isolated personality.

I tend to exist in multiple personalities taking form by my feelings at the time be it be an Evil mad man who dispises religion or a Goody two shoes who loves the Catholic faith. Either way I act totally different in any case because they tend to play with my thoughts in different ways.

All I ask is that the people at stardock and anyone here look at my point of view and see that I am a person who tries and that dosen't always succeed at trying. I really don't want to have enemies but seems there hard to avoid so I have given up trying to make them friends.

P.S. this may be a little personal but what do I got to lose here except my elegibiity to the site.
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Reply #1 from GalCiv2 Forums Top
You might do better, and not get banned as often, if you would just slow down a bit.
Before you hit that submit button, sit back, check your spelling, punctuation, and content a little more carefully. Try to imagine reading it for the first time to see what kind of impression it will give people.

Who knows, you may find something in your post that even you would be offended by if someone were to say it to you.

Blaming it on personality traits is fine, but it won't keep you in the welcome category for long.

If it is not your view, yet it is from everyone around you, perhaps it is time to re-evaluate your view?
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Reply #3 from GalCiv2 Forums Top
There are people on this forum far more troubled than you. At least you are open and honest enough to open your heart and express your real feelings. I too wonder why I sometimes get royally flamed when i was honestly trying to improve the game and everything involved with it. I have to admit though that once someone flames me enough I do strike back. I have never posted profanity. I insult with thoughts not individual words. It is hilarious to see some people that have flamed me completely lose it when I post my comeback. Hang in there. If everyone opened up and truthfully admitted their problems the world would be a better place. What you did here took courage. I hope it helps bring you inner peace. I commend you for this. Bye for now TBAY
Reply #4 from GalCiv2 Forums Top
I find your posts very engaing. You have on many occassions posted views that completel contradict mine, but I enjoy crossing swords. I actually see no reason why you would be banned
Reply #5 from GalCiv2 Forums Top
I have to agree with moostek13, I often sit back and review what I have typed befor I hit "Post Comment".

I have often rephrased my original writing to make it clearer.
Reply #6 from GalCiv2 Forums Top
I have appreciated your input on this site.

Getting emotional and personal about this hobby is a though can be a bit much though. Haven't noticed you as much as some others.

Hope you keep on posting, even if you do need to pause a second before hitting the "Post Comment" button.
Reply #7 from GalCiv2 Forums Top
Man im just like that too in real life... know exactly how you feel, tho i can control it as soon as i have a few drinks i seem to alienate everybody i know.. lost more than a few friends that way and although i probably should stop drinking its an insideous thing, i dont feel comfortable around people (unless i drink)much like you've described (minus the drinking thing)...

dont worry about it too much buddy... keep ya head up~!
Reply #8 from GalCiv2 Forums Top
You would do well to heed the words of some wisdom in this post! I would gladly lift your ban on IRC and NeoTech if you just listen to all the kind words here.

PS No one would stop you from being at any website your a very cool person dude when you don't get frustrated as you do. Like I said before I also had almost the same exact prolems. Some here are relating to this conflict you are experiencing. I am always going to be your friend dude.
Reply #9 from GalCiv2 Forums Top
I liked your North Korea Test Missle post. I haven't seen you flamming anybody.
Reply #10 from GalCiv2 Forums Top
I really try to avoid posting derogitory comments and degrading comments along with any other non advitent things mainly I see Social Isolation as a true barrier which I try my hardest to work around I say things which I mean something compleately different although I don't immeadiatly think of the conequences of doing so.

All I really want to do is to help and assist if I can but seems that assistance is not in a perfect well though out form when I attempt it.

Although a ban in my eyes is not going to stop me, the thing I need to work on the most is to just look at what I post more as to see through there eyes, although that is a hard thing to do over the internet I am much better at it if I have an actually person who is giving expression to what they mean. some people think I just want to antagonise although I may not want to actually antagonise though I use words which promote that feeling.
Reply #11 from GalCiv2 Forums Top
Diplomacy is a skill that must be learned and practiced. It does not come naturally to most people.
Reply #12 from GalCiv2 Forums Top
I find one thing that helps a lot is if you are not sure about a negative message, sit on it for a while and then come back and read it later. Sometimes you read it later and think to yourself, "Sure glad I didn't post that! Let me soften this up." I've saved myself plenty of heartache that way.
Reply #13 from GalCiv2 Forums Top
All the advise given here I will take and think about given time maybe I can work things out.